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I woke up today with a splitting headache, aching muscles and whopping cough. Definitely not better than yesterday. I'm envious of how our TL#1 bounced back to his usual active self after his bout with high fever last night. I wish I was still young. He keeps saying, Mommy why are you not feeling better? Me, i'm okay now! And he's off playing ball with his daddy. I kept having bad and weird dreams last night. I dreamt I was being wheeled into the operating room and I was protesting loudly because I just had surgery the past week and the week before that and the week before that. The doctor was arguing with me and I was pleading and crying with all my might. Today, my cough takes a turn for the worst. The rain won't stop pouring. But nothing worst comes after worst, right? :) A blessed Sunday to everyone. Please pray for us sickly ones, including all my colleagues who were afflicted with the same virus. Kailangan mahanap at masingil natin kung sino ang salarin. Charge n...

I cannot sleep. I have a very stuffy nose, I couldn't breathe properly. And each time I try to close my eyes, my brain keeps conjuring up different images. And since I'm still awake to think about them, the sissy in me tries to shake away the images lest they suddenly turn into scary things like ghosts or monsters. This is the reason why I shun away from horror movies. I think my subconscious has photographic memory. That or I have been born with a wild imagination. Or it may be because of the medications I have been on since Thursday. I have not had proper sleep since I got sick. Thursday night was a torture. I kept waking up feeling physically sick and also mentally exhausted because I kept having the same dream of counting down until the pain is gone. Friday night was better. There was lesser pain. But I had a fitful sleep because of the comfort room breaks from the water therapy. Tonight, the clogged nose attacks even though the fever is gone. I hope to feel better tomorrow...

I am in a bad mood. I am sad, close to depressed. Drama queen is reporting for duty. Eh kasi naman , I accounted for my assets, liabilities, income and expenses last night to put all those preaching about personal finance into action. And I was not happy with the result.  visit Real Living magazine website It did not help that we went to the  RL Space exhibit  today and learned how much like this and like this and like this will  cost . The pressure to cut down on expenses is on.  I need to be more prudent in my spending. I should avoid going to the mall (I almost bought a camera today despite of the current state of my financial health).  I should also cut down on my food costs.  Kain kasi ng kain ng kain ng kain. Walang katapusan. :) I should continue to pray for good health for myself and my family. We have had financial setbacks from the previous years due to sickness in the family - from my laparascopic surgery to TL#1's bout with the kawasaki ...

This is the 2nd post in my daily boost series as inspired by the book 88 Super Practical Boosters To Get What You Want in Life What is the thing that you live for, enabling you to endure all that happens in your life? It took me a while to answer this because I am not exactly Mrs. Endurance. I stuck it out for five years in my first job not necessarily because I was in love with it but because I did not know what I really wanted in my life and I was scared to get out of my comfort zone. Yes, I am a sissy but I am slowly finding my courage with age and experience. I am an impulsive person and I make decisions based on my emotions. I've been taking 'leaps of faith' but I took one too many that they didn't feel like a leap anymore, more of a skip and maybe an escape. I think there is wisdom in having a purpose, a why, a reason. It gives you an anchor and the strength to be resilient and enduring. I used to work abroad but I had no concrete goals for going there. Should I h...

Why drive, when the husband can drive and you can blog? ;) Do you find it hard to get out of bed every working day? Are you stuck in a rut and couldn't seem to get out? Are you looking for a motivation? Well, I can not give you a solution. But I have this book 88 Super Practical Boosters To Get What You Want In Life  by Yonit Werber sitting neglected in my Kindle App. It's supposed to be a daily motivation snack so why don't I share the boosters one day (or night) at a time and we give it a try? It might just work. Get what you want in Life Remember: If you do not ask, you will not get it "What is it that you want for yourself today?" In your unbelievably hectic life, stop and take a moment to write what you want. They say there is power in writing down thoughts and goals. Own your goals. Believe that the powers of the universe will conspire to give you what you want. letting our goals soar with the flying lantern Do not edit your thoughts, be specific and write d...

I am obsessing! It's already 8 in the evening! Saan na napunta ang weekend ko? Ang dami ko pang kailangang gawin! And I find the need to write them down here before I go insane. Believe me I love my sons, but our eldest won't give me peace of mind. Laging nakabuntot at laging gusto kasama ako sa lahat ng gagawin nya . It is endearing and annoying at the same time! Ewan ko ba, hinde ko rin alam bakit bigla na lang ang dami kong gustong gawin sa buhay ko. Tumatanda na kasi?!? Thank God for our kasambahays ! I am really grateful to have them at home. They take a big load off me. I know the next three hours (before I go to sleep won't be enough) for all the things that I want to accomplish today so I will just make a list as my guide for next weekend. I won't probably be able to do much other done concentrate on work these weekdays. I have to eat some serious frog* and I anticipate some stress coming in, realistically speaking. *eat a frog - accomplish a not-so-desirable t...

Back in May, during one of my "I want to find my true passion" moments, I thought I'd make my college dream come true by enrolling in a fashion design school. I was inspired by a colleague from my previous employer who pursued her passion for fashion design while working. After some years of hard work, fun and persistence, she graduated and was making a wedding gown the last time we talked. So I turned to google and I came upon Style Studio Fashion and Design School. I sent them an inquiry and got feedback right away but I got cold feet and I did not push through. I'm all plans but no guts. ;( Anyway, I recently received an email from them. In case you are or you know someone interested, here are the details: Style Studio Fashion & Design School will start the next term for short courses on Sept. 7, 2013. Enrollment are now going on. Please see attached file for short courses they offer. Saturday Class Fashion Illustration 9AM - 4PM Pattern Making 9AM - 4PM Sewing...

I went to the dentist today. It is a big accomplishment for me because I don't fancy going to the dentist. I did not enjoy having my impacted wisdom tooth extracted about 3 years ago. But I just turned a year older so I decided to face my fear and get it over with. What was I to lose? A lot of bucks! Indeed. While I was lying down on the dental chair, cringing from the sound of the dental equipment hitting my teeth, I decided to put the experience into context. Come to think of it, the pricking during a facial hurts more than the cavity filling and oral prophylaxis (dental cleaning) but I endure that every other month. Why not do the same for the sake of my oral health! I liked the way the dentist handled my session so I listened to her advice and finally decided to fix my issue on teeth sensitivity due to exposed roots. Dental appliance anyone? I was really proud after and was bragging about my accomplishment to my son. It felt good to have squeaky clean mouth and a major (always ...

I've been wanting to write about this since I listened to the episode 'What to do When You Hate Your Job" by Michael Hyatt 's This is My Life podcast. No, I don't hate my job. Hate is too strong a word. But admittedly, there are times I find it hard and overwhelming. And during those times, it is easy to get swayed emotionally and it becomes difficult to put things in perspective. In short, I react and feel like a victim who has no control of my circumstances instead of taking a step back and acting consciously. I know, I know, choosing to be proactive rather than reactive will make all the difference. However at the heat of the moment, it is not easy to make the good choice. “If you’re proactive, you don’t have to wait for circumstances or other people to create perspective expanding experiences. You can consciously create your own." - Stephen Covey It takes a lot of practice and conscious efforts before one can be truly proactive. Makes me think I should hav...

Tonight is the eve of my 32nd birthday and I am enjoying some precious and hard-to-get-by quiet time. *sigh of contentment here* How I miss to say, "I'm bored!" or " Wala bang magawa ?". Those times are few and far between. Maybe because as we grow older, we are burdened with more responsibilities and we want to accomplish more each day? OVERWHELMED - that's me these days or maybe for most of my adult life. And I try to squash that feeling by doing as much as I could each day. I put in long hours whenever needed, which is almost everyday. Then I get sick or someone in the family gets sick or there's an emergency. I take a leave and the tasks pile up. Then I go back and put in the long hours again to address the backlog. Vicious cycle. I can only handle so much so I become apathetic to some aspects of my life like keeping in touch with family and friends and addressing our housekeeping matters. If you would note from my posts, I am mostly just rambling ab...

Hinde naman siguro masyadong obvious na mahilig akong mag-blog. Kulang na lang bahain ko ang newsfeed ko ng links sa posts ko eh . :) And despite my busyness, I try to make time for it. Please bear with me. I'm trying to pursue my passion. And since I Iove doing this, I decided to make over my blog! Slight lang naman para hinde mahal - a birthday gift to myself. Didn't you notice the new look?!? I love it. Kahit simple, mahalin ang sariling atin. :) Happy ako, hinde ba obvious? :) I have always been fascinated with words and pretty images. If I were to make over myself, I would like to be a magazine editor-in-chief. Why not? Well, right now, I am the editor-in-chief of this blog. Walang kokontra! I wanted a more professional looking blog so I googled and googled and googled. I also looked at some of the more popular mom blogs out there for reference. I noticed a few using premium wordpress themes. Most are using customized templates by Fancy Girl Designs but I feel I am not rea...

I am turning 32 in a few days. Wow, i'm getting older. I want to think I am still young but my mind and body are showing signs of aging.  I celebrated the year I turned 30 with a blog post countdown . In the span of two years, I gave birth to our second son and I achieved a milestone in my career.  I am now a mother to a hyper soon-to-be pre-schooler and an adorable one-year old. I have grown 2 sizes bigger. I have become short-tempered and I suffer from constant memory lapses. I am still in denial but I know I have to fully embrace my role as a parent - searching for that big school, attending school activities, be actively involved in assignments and exams. I have to be more present at home so I need to manage my 24 hours wisely.  As I turn 32, I decided to tackle the following resolutions: 1.  de-clutter and unclutter I need to be more organized so that I can think more clearly. I've been feeling heavy lately and I need to let go of all physical, emotional and psy...

It's Friday and my son bid me farewell today with this: Me: Bye baby. Mommy is going now. TL#1: Where are you going again mommy? Me: To work. TL#1: Why don't you work fast mommy? I'll give you my power of speed so you can work fast! He must really want me to come home early. At times like this, I feel a compelling need to find an 8 to 5 work. But is that the solution? When I was younger, before I became a teenager, I always looked forward to my Mama and Papa coming home from work. I like it more when they have pasubong but I was mostly content to have them home. Ah, the security of being with your parents! Then I became a teenager (with a boyfriend) and didn't care much anymore. That's why I want to squeeze as much memories and bonding moments with my kids at this stage in their life. Moms with older kids say that this stage is fleeting. There'll come a time that your children won't look for you anymore unless they want something. I believe in spending qual...

Thankful for today - an ordinary, almost boring, rejuvenating Saturday. Just what I badly needed. About three weeks ago, I snapped big time. Something in me has gone pretty mad and I waged a silent war - me against the world. I feel so stretched yet it seems I should give room for more. Hinde ko na alam kung saan ko huhugutin ang kailangan ko pang ibigay! I lost control of myself. I wallowed in victim mode. I threw major tantrums. I turned against my easiest targets - my hubby and the kids - shouting at the slightest provocation. Maybe, it has got something to do too with the fact that I am soon turning 32. Getting old? And fat? Hehehehe . Frustrations? Baggage? Masarap din minsan to give in to your emotions . To acknowledge that you are human. To give yourself time to process what you are going through. I am good at feigning indifference. How else could I get through each long workday without thinking much of the safety of my kids who are left under the care of strangers?! How else c...

Spent the first 3 days of the week mostly talking to my staff and coachees, assessing their performance and giving out some nuggets of wisdom. Practice accountability. Refuse to feel like victims of circumstances. Take control of your personal development. Reinvent the wheel. Help yourself by improving our current ways of doing things. Think long-term. It is normal to feel tired but if you have a goal, you will not be swayed by long hours, stress and client issues. Blah-blah-blah-blah! Ang dami ko pa pinagsasabi. Back in Dublin, the term 'reinvent the wheel' coined by management was the butt of a joke of the staff. Two days after, I think I need some pep talk myself. Okay, I'm disappointed with my sick leave conversion. Nagexpect kasi masyado kahit alam namang madaming absent! It really pays to be healthy. I had to confront a number of issues at work. Okay lang ang busy, kahit 12 hours of work a day. Wag lang stressed sa issues! I know I am stressed because I almost lost m...

It's been a while since I saw a view as breathtaking and raw as that of the Blue Lagoon in Bucas Grande Island in Surigao del Norte. Stunning! As in wow talaga! I felt so close to our Creator and the grandeur of His creations. Forgive the resolution of the pictures. We only used our phone cameras. Husband and I booked a trip to Club Tara Resort last November 2012 and it proved to be one of our most memorable yet. I got the deal through cashcash pinoy . We stayed for 2 nights. This post is long overdue but I wanted to write about our unforgettable trip before I forget the details. Hehehe . My memory is becoming so unreliable. From Surigao airport, the hotel van service picked us up. It took 1 hour and 30 minutes to get to the pier and 30 minutes from the pier to the island. It cost us P6,000 good for 2 persons when we availed of the hotel transfers. Very convenient but a bit expensive compared to haggling with the van and banca drivers. Felt like we were traveling forever until fi...

Am I thinking too small? In a meeting with our bosses and fellow managers, I found myself a bit out of place. My colleagues seem to be talking a foreign language. They were into initiatives, growth, marketing. In my mind, I can only see myself on my desk busy reviewing deliverables, answering queries, making proposals. But to go beyond that, I feel some reluctance and a lot of pain. This grown up has some serious growing up to do! But how?  Should I spend less time reading my magazine subscriptions (Yes!, Star, OK) and browsing pep.ph? Aside from spending time with my hubby and kids, updating my blog and watching the Voice! Philippines, I do nothing else but sleep and eat. My hands are full as it is.  And yet there is still some growing up to do? I'm clueless where to start and I'm a bit inflexible because of my age. But am I at least asking the right questions?  Is it time to grow up? 

A week ago, I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. It has not gotten any better since. My behavior today before I left home for work was inexcusable. Matinding matandang tantrums! My patience has run out. I am at my boiling point. I snap at anything and anyone, most of all at my husband and TL#1. What's frustrating me? Well, among others, TL#2's ever-reliable yaya is leaving and we have not found a replacement, even an unsuitable one. My denim pants won't fit. Daym! Oh I forgot, I have a client meeting, can't dress down. I can't find my ID! TL#1 won't stop whining and he's late for school. Shut up please! I have not even combed my hair yet. Nasaan ba ang mga suklay dito?!? Hay naku, pudpod na ang sapatos ko! My husband is still in bed playing Clash of Titans and I am envious. Sabay lang naman kami uuwi! I did not have a good night's sleep. I kept dreaming about the giveaways. What's up with that! And TL#2 woke me up twice to ask for milk. Have I pr...

Today is TL#2's birthday so hubby and I took the day off. To maximize the day, we decided to spend the morning eating a frog in the Land Transportation Office (LTO) - me, for the renewal of my expired driver's license which i've been putting off for more than a year now. I do not really drive so there was no point until recently. I will turn 32 in August and there's no harm (really?) to try to muster the courage to drive live with all the other drivers out there. Scary! We arrived here in LTO - FTI Taguig at 9:15 am. The queue is organized and the officers are helpful. There are also documentation requirements and steps posted in conspicuous places. Fo renewal, you only need your driver's license and accomplished application form plus medical certificate. There was no need for a drug test due to the recent lifting of such requirement by Senate Bill 45 filed by Sen. Tito Sotto. The medical examination consisted only of getting your weight, eye examination and blood ...

Pwedeng umiyak? Gutom na yata ako. My head is aching. Maybe I talked too much in the meeting. Mondays are really manic. As soon as I tick off a to do, another one crops up. Mushroom?!? I've been toting this book The One-Life Solution by Dr. Henry Cloud for about two months now. I have yet to turn another page since I got stuck on p.66 (of p.239). The byline promise is - Reclaim your personal life while achieving greater professional success. Here's the point on the page where I stopped reading: Your time is your life. Period. How you spend it ends up being what your life is. To quote further: No matter what you want to do, wish you had done, plan to do, or fantasize about while you are doing something else, the final reality of your life is how you spent your time. What can I say? My time management does not seem to be working. Heto na lang -Sana manalo ako sa lotto ngayong gabi. Please please! And if I do not win tonight, i will continue reading the book tomorrow. Habang may b...